Twisting feelings...

I should keep writing the blog or otherwise I'll loose control over myself. I'm getting confused...the winter is coming so I'm depressed. On the weekend I drunk a lot so I got careless and..I like flirting. It's not like I did something bad. I already have a a boyfriend since almost a decade XD I love him more than anything...it's just that sometimes I like play around a bit with single guys.. Orrr err.. no good sample. It's not playing around it's just flirting. It feels good sometimes. But now I got careless and get some blushing because of some guy from my university and also he is  afriend of mine... I see himeveryday. Some time ago I already had fantasies with him but not so strongly.. but now I got excited...would like to try some things... OMG JUST CALM DOWN MY BRAIN.... My blood is boiling... My feelings are twisted... And it's worse since I cant see my boyfriend too often...